A night with Mr. Ward

Sing me a song with your soft boyish melodies
Surround me with the comfort in your voice and lull me to sleep
A misty blue persuasion keeps me cold and awake
But the key to my slumber lies in the soothing touch of your voice that seeps into my ears and rests behind my eyes
Your comforting chorus relaxes on my tongue and with every exhale sits on an escaping whisper
You never let me down, your always there for me to runaway with
A relationship that gets stronger with every note
I take it with me wherever I go

Dying since the day I showed up

As morbid as it might sound, I think about my death. About who would show up to my funeral and what people would say about me. If anybody would miss me, and if my existence made any difference in this world.
Have I lived my life the way I want to be remembered? Have I loved the way I always imagined I would?
I imagine death being like a big dream, a dream that you don't understand. A floating abyss of time in the palm of a hand.
I hope it's a like song, your favorite song that reaches deep into your stomache, and caresses your blood so you feel it everywhere. A song that makes you absolutley perfect in that moment. That moment that will last forever, or at least until the next journey. :)

I imagine someone saying " Amanda was child of love, in fact thats what her name means. Deserving of love, surrounded by love. Amanda loved with her mind, her eyes, and her whole heart. When you feel the crisp air on your cheeks, read a line of comfort, or hear a song that makes you know it's going to be okay, you'll feel her there with you and realize she's left a piece of herself in all of us"

Brainiac

I can't escape it tonight, two glasses of wine in and I can't get out of my brain. I never figured out the off button to the damn thing. My heart has been getting crazy again, pounding on my chest like it's looking for an escape. It steals my breath and makes me feel weak, out of control...I was never in control. I sit, breath slowly and let the air kiss my lungs hoping to subside the anxiety. In return, my cheeks are rosey with tingles and it feels good when I smile. I wish I had someone to cuddle with tonight, someone who would kiss my forehead and make me feel safe. Someone who with the stroke of his hand on my rosey cheek would calm me and put me to sleep.

CoAcHeLLa...a long day, a long blog

I went to my third Coachella about six days ago, every time I go it gets a little better. This year I had to go! For a hundred bucks I would have been satisfied to see Paul McCartney alone. But, for my money they threw in M. Ward, The Black Keys, Conner Oberst and the Mystic Valley Band, Crystal Castles, freaking Ghostland Observatory (so awesome), and Morrissey. So very much worth my money. This year had a really nice theme with these artists. They all sounded better then their albums. Seeing them live gave me the tingles. Our first person on the list was the "oh so adorable" and extremely talented M.Ward. Of course being on the second stage he had some audio trouble, never fails on that stage. But it didn't break him, and when it got handled he put on such a great show.

He had a professional whistler in one of his songs, I think I just found a new career path for my dad...
Next up was The Black Keys... I was really excited for this one, a sexy sounding bearded guy who plays an amazing rock/blues guitar. The drummer is really awesome too. They were really good!Although I was a little sad they were on the mainstage. It's a two man group and they were too small on that huge stage. They don't have a big enough show to fill the stage, so they got lost a little. I would love to see them again though, smaller setting.
After the blues mood was set we headed back to the second stage for some Conner Oberst and the Mystic Valley band. I wasn't as familiar with his music, I just know him as Bright Eyes. But a friend we were with loves him so we checked him out. I was impressed! His songs were really good to listen too and fun. He talked a little spacey and I wasn't on anything to be able to understand what he was talking about, but his songs made me happy and so did his Omish hat.

This guy also made me happy...

After Conner's set, we went to the Sahara tent to catch the last half of the Crystal Castles set. They were good, but they were probably the only artist we saw that I actually like the album more then the live show. But they weren't bad by any means. By the time we got there the tent was jammed. I couldn't take any pictures or video because it was so packed tight you couldn't see anything. After them came Ghostland Observatory... AHHHH!!!! Ghostland Observatory... Not much to say...the music, lasers, keyboard player in a cape, and american indian lead singer that has moves like Freddie Mercury, speaks for itself. Hands down one of the most entertaining shows I've ever seen. (warning:on some of the videos are pretty shaky at times...very hard to stay still during this set)

After the most amazing set with Ghostland we headed to the main stage to catch the end of Morrissey. He was really good too, it was a little hard for my adrenline to come down so low after ghostland's set but I really enjoyed him. I was amazed how good he sounded and looked for his age. At one point he took his shirt off and I was a little stunned by how good he looked with out it. He ended with "How soon is Now" which was really cool. I was kind of sad I missed the whole vegetarian whine I heard he had going, that pissed so many people off.

And after that was the king of music himself, Sir Paul McCartney. I got goosebumps watching him. It was the best concert I have every seen. The man is in his late sixties and he played 35 songs. It was incredible, words can't describe it. He is so genuine and silly and fun. I love him! He sang everything, our camera's couldn't capture how great it really was nor every song we wanted to film. My little camera said kaput in the middle of his set. But we managed to capture some of the magic. Only a percent of the greatness we witnessed.

Sadly there isn't enough time to really see all the cool art and sculptures they have around...but heres some fun stuff

I never miss the tesla coil...

Once again proving no need to use a flash when I'm in a picture... At the end of the night I have to admit we were one of the thousands who couldn't find our car. In our defense, they don't make it easy. Coachella third time round was so much fun!

O'Bama Rama

I am constantly amazed with some of things I have seen and lived through in the world that will be in history books for the rest of my life. Sitting through history class you never realize that it's possible to be alive and witness any of the events you learn in your history books. Yesterday was a moment in history that will change our future.
I am not one for politics. Through the years I have purposely ignored elections and anything related to politics because I always believed it was bullshit. I always saw it as people who were hungry for money and power and no one really ever cared about the country. Yesterday that changed for me. I like Obama, I believe he wants a better future for our country. But I also wanted to make sure that I wasn't a sheep following the herd. To many people I meet in my day to day life, don't look at the facts. They get influenced by everything around them and don't make decisions for themselves. I refuse to be one of those people. I don't care that all my friends are Democrats. I don't care that my parents are Republicans. What they believe is what they believe, and nobody can influence me without all the facts. With all that said, passed getting all misty eyed while he spoke again,whether you are Democrat or Republican, Obama made me believe that there is hope in this country's future for change. That the path we are all on right now can only end badly, that we need to unite as a country and show the rest of the world that it is possible. That it is possible to live in a country where everyone is free, people can be whoever they want to be, dreams are not out of reach, and than peace can prevail. It was the most uplifting speech I think I have ever heard, So Kudo's to Mr. Obama for turning a girl with doubt in the world she lives in, to a girl with hope in a future that she will want to raise kids in one day.