resolutions

Another freaking year has passed, and it went entirely too fast. Our economy is in the shit hole at the moment, everyone is struggling. People are doing drastic things, no one really feels like themselves anymore. So what is there really to look forward to in 2009. I think this next year is going to be about "hope". We have hope in a new president, we have hope that things are going to make themselves right again. Everything needs to be turned around and upside down once in awhile. It keeps us spoiled un-appreciative humans in check. It makes us satisfied with the lives we have and stop thinking about what we don't have. We start seeing how lucky we are with everything in our world. This past year has been a reality check. And this next year is going to be hard work, but amazing to see what people can do when they come together in this kind of a time.
As for myself, I stopped believing in other people a long time ago. I felt constantly dissappointed by people that I truley trusted. I gave up on them, I gave up on society, I just plain gave up and stopped trying. I just stayed put behind these walls I created for myself a couple years ago. This new year is about hope for myself also. Hope that I can join the real world again. I have realized how many wonderful people I know, how there are good people out there and it's worth trying. I have hope in myself that I can make myself happy, follow my dreams, and finally be comfortable in my own skin.
Everyone is talking about how 2009 is going to be a hard freaking year and people are going to feel it. That is probably true, but I feel that it is going to make everyone stronger, everyone really love one another, everyone will see themselves stripped of all the bullshit. And I have hope that we will enter 2010, stronger and most of all happy.
This goes for every single one of my friends that is in "it" right now. We stick together, we will make it out just fine. Just keep your hopes high.

My Resolutions:
- (Let's get the annoying one out of the way) I'm going to lose weight, I don't know how much, but enough until I am happy.
- I am going to stop worrying so much about loved ones problems and start working on building my own happiness.
- Take care of myself, health wise. I am probably the unhealthiest vegetarian around. I got to fix that.
- I want to try hard to be positive. I used to be a positive person and at one point I got very cynical.
- I am going to work hard at making my friends know that I love them for who they are. I always have loved them for who they are, but certain ones this past year made clear that I don't always act that way.
- I am going to work hard at following my dreams, I gave up on those a long time ago

I feel woken up, after I have been a sleep for a couple years. I have been sitting on my ass trying to figure out who I am. By doing that I lost something, I lost something that made me, well me.
2009 is going to be better....it's in the stars! :o)

Day and Night Trippers

To say my family trips a lot is an understatement! And when we go down, we do it right and in classic bumbling style. It usually happens in a very public place, or in a very dramatic way. I'f we had cameras following us, it would be very entertaining footage. My father takes the lead, with tripping over his own feet quite often. He's learned to catch himself much better in his older age. My mother doesn't do it that often, but when she does it is an oscar worthy fall. Me, I usually am oblivous when I am walking so I often trip, not see a step, bump into furniture, doors, all of the above. I don't often actually go down, but I usually have a bruise or two on me at all times. My sister almost never falls, and doesn't really trip often...until last night. We have a list of the great falls of the family and my big sister just made the list at number four. I am fortunate to have been witness to all of them. Here is our list:
4. Last night my big sister and her husband, son, and I were at holiday festival lighting in san juan capistrano. We headed down towards the train depot where they have a holiday metrolink with santa claus, my nephew loves trains, when my sister stepped on a grate and her heel slipped. It actually looked like she caught herself then suddenly her other foot slipped and she caught herself with banging her head on a store a window and then falling to the ground. Like I said, us Calabro's go down in class, she scraped her knees and hands up but didn't even rip her tights. Go Big sis!
3. I come in at number three with not looking and stepping into a heating vent that was in the floor. When we lived in our old Victorian style home back in Riverside, the heating vents were located in corners on the floor. They had these big grates on them. So when you turned the corner you often stepped on part of the grate. Well, one night when the fam was getting ready to go out to dinner, my dad and brother-in-law had pulled the grate out of the vent in the dining room. They were looking at something on it. Well, we were about to leave so got up quickly to go grab my sweater and turned the corner quickly into the dining room not looking where I was walking. Suddenly my right like went into the heating vent up to mid thigh. I scraped my leg from my ankle to my knee. I didn't even care about that, I was so shocked when my leg went through the ground it seemed like and so incredibly embarrassed for some reason, I just started tearing up. And again, in true Calabro style, I was wearing jeans, my levi's were not damaged in any way. Still, not a good night for me.
2. My dad falls into the number two spot with his movie theater fall. We went to go see a movie that was sold out and we headed towards the front of the theater to get one of those close seats when my dad didn't realize that where the carpet ends is not a step. He went to go take a step and got disoriented and fell to one knee at the front of the theater in front of a sold out theater. Poor guy turned bright red.
1. My mother takes the number one spot with her houdini act of rolling down Mt. Rubidoux. My mother and I went for a walk, we decided to take the unpaved path around the mountain instead of the main road. It got steep and slippery. As my mother is telling me "Manda, watch out it's really slippery here" she loses control of her feet and starts to sort of walk run down the mountain and then finally loses her balance and starts rolling down the side of the mountain and proceeds to bounce off the side of the mountain before she actually stops. I stood there stunned, especially since there was freeway below and if she would have kept going it would have been really scary. But, to show how we Calabro's do it, she rolled down the side of a mountain and didn't even have a scratch. She was totally fine. It was freaking hilarious though.

Fell in love with this song all over again

"Time's A Wastin"-Erykah Badu

Yeah

Time's a wastin
Don't you take your time young man
Keep on driftin and
Ain't no tellin where you'll land

Run baby, run, run
Where you runnin to?
And who you runnin from?
Some people may not understand
What it means to be a man
Takin' full command
Cause we're

Livin in a world that's oh so strange
Boy don't let your focus change
Takin out the demons in your range, hey
Livin in a world that's oh so fast
Gotta make your money last
Learn from the past, oh

Time's a wastin
Don't you take your time young man
Keep on driftin and
Ain't no tellin where you'll land

Sweet love and sunshine
If it's all in the air
Then it's all on your mind
Breathe baby
Come back to the world
Dig up all your pearls
Teach the boys and girls, hey

Livin in a world that's oh so strange
Boy don't let your focus change
Takin out the demons in your range, hey
Livin in a world that's oh so fast
Gotta make your money last
Learn from the past, oh

Oh baby we need to smile
Oh baby we need to smile
Oh baby we need to smile
Oh baby we need to smile

Time's a wastin
Don't you take your time young man
Keep on driftin and
Ain't no tellin where you'll land

Oh baby we need to smile
Oh baby we need to smile
Oh baby we need to smile
Oh baby we need to smile

Oh, oh, oh, oh...

Time's a wastin
Don't you take your time young man
Keep on driftin and
Ain't no tellin where you'll land

Ain't no tellin, oh, oh...