drunken thought

Something a little birdy told me...

to be truely aware of your surroundings is to not be worried about offending anyone
honesty is to not be afraid of humilty
and to see with your eyes wide open is the biggest downfall of all

Ms. grumpy greta

Ever have one of those days where you feel so aggravated,so annoyed that you could just scream? Almost like everyone annoying you is just standing behind you pinching at your shoulders continuously. Days where feel like cringing at the sound of someones voice. Those are the days where I seem to live in my head more than in reality. I just cant deal with it, I refuse to deal with it when I feel like that. I sit in my head, almost like I actually have grabbed a chair and took a break in my brain. Maybe tommorrow I'll deal with it, but today like a 6 year old, I just won't do it.

It's a comfy kind of love

When I think about love I automatically see great story book fantasies that are sweetly read to idealistic young girls hoping that one day the perfect man on a white horse will come wisk her away to a blissful existence. Personally, growing up watching old movies of these wonderfully dramatic romances that always work out in the end have made me long for something incredible. I can't lie, I want what audrey hepburn had in Breakfast at Tiffany's. I want what Rachel Mcadams had in (dare I say it boys) The Notebook. That's what every girl wants. And thats why the divorce rate in america is at a record high. We all want this lovely story of looking at someone and being totally happy with our situation.
In the past when couples weren't happy they would suck it up and try to make work. They would at least give it their best shot and then call it quits. Today, when things get a little ugly, every one has become very good at putting on their best pair of puma's and running as far away as they can. It's become acceptable now that if your unhappy for a moment in your relationship than it's not a relationship you should be in. That is just not acceptable to me.
I believe, im desperately holding on to the belief, if you are one of the lucky ones in this world to find someone who loves you for exactly who are than that is worth everything. That is worth the aggravation, the tears, the hurt. It is worth giving up yourself to something more than you were expecting. It's worth a piece of your world. As I grow older, and more likely to live alone with cats (I dont even like cats), part of myself is starting to see how delusional I probably am, and part of me just cant give up on it. I look at my parents, married for over thirty years, and am amazed and hopeful. They annoy each other, and bicker, and complain, and whine. They are best friends and worst enemies at the same time. They fight the greatest of fights, and laugh from their guts with each other. They have history, a life with one another. They love each other when they look at one another. It's in the eyes. I am waiting for that guy that will look at me and say it all with one look. I want him to be my best friend, someone who at times might annoy the living shit out of me, but I just couldn't imagine my life without him. I want to have incredible fights with him, and laughs until my cheeks hurt. There's no point in settling for anything less!