Another night goes by feeling comfortable. Not taking any risks, not feeling any real emotion. I have not expierenced my own truth in a long time. You are what your mind perceives! I think I gave up on myself along time ago.
I live in my dreamland and am comfortable. A wasted existence if I never believe in my own truth. My place here, my job, my purpose never truley recognized. If I cant allow myself to believe that I deserve my dreams and goals than why should any body else? I am frightened to fail, frightened that people won't credit me for trying and only see the failure in me. I have beaten them to the punch, I have seen the failure in myself before even trying. How do you get past that fear? Right now that controls me, no matter how hard I try to shake it. Therefore my life has stopped, and I sit in a comfort zone never moving anywhere, even if it was backwards.
There are only two mistakes one can make along the road to truth; not going all the way, and not starting.
-Buddha
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